Friday, August 19, 2011

in that moment . . .

berterawih dengan junior
the moment that you have been chosen as imamah
then suddenly had adrenalin rush
upss !
8 rakaat :)
takkan asyik ulang 3 kul jep

in that moment
you feel
realized
how important to read, understand and remember 
at least all surah in juz 30

tak lah nanti jadi ummi 
anak boring asik dengar ummi ulang 3 kul jep 

in that moment ...

bila semak keputusan rayuan IPTA
harap maaf anda tidak berjaya
OMG ...
mudahnya kata2 
that moment 
when you feel 
a deep pain in your heart
dissappointed



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the moment that you realize

how difficult to continue study
padahal adik aku yang tak dapat
tapi aku pulak yang rasa frust menonggeng
taulah aku perasaan mak ayah 
the moment i said i wanna quit

the moment when you see your little brother
in and out from house
everynite gayut
dapat hadiah itu ini
ade girlfriend lah tu

the moment when you see 
baju shopping girlfriend adik yang tertinggal dalam kete
masyaAllah

the moment that you feel
that your little brother is still small
and now ade girlfriend pulak
the burden that you feel
fear
responsibilites
worries
anxiety
all-in-one

oh how difficult to raise a child 
my little brother nanti nak jadi husband orang pulak ?
Ya Allah , kuatkan hatiku


the moment when you got back home
adik laki ke 3 demam pulak
balik2 penat kena jaga die
the moment you kena pujuk die
buka puasa
why kena buka dan tak teruskan
the moment yang you dah tak tau how to convince him
its okay to breakfast
but its of crucial important not to skip prayers
walau sakit tak larat macam mana pun
the moment you try to explain between fasting and praying ...
the psychology you used to make him understand


the moment you ask him to wake up 
take bath and pray
prepare food for him
amik ubat
the moment that you start thinking
why he got fever
any cough? any runny nose?
kena hujan ke hape?
the moment that you realize
a parent is also a doctor
and now
it was you to do what your parents do


alhamdulillah 
sekarang adik aku tu dah kebah demam die
tadi kol pun suara ceria macam nak ajak aku belanje pizza
:) 
dan sangat alhamdulillah 
badan aku jarang amat demam
last was in standard 6
alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah

the moment that you went to mosque
old ladies brought chairs for prayers
pregnant mother
mom with their babies - ade yang nangis. ade yang happily playing. kejar sane golek sini


oh how can a single and healthy woman like me
buleh rasa malas nak pi terawih?
terawih kat umah je pulak tuh >0_O<


the moment that you feel
so many things to do
to improve
and there's no one to turn to
to help you
to calm you
give support and cheer you up


that moment when you feel
there's nothing
but only Him
the most merciful


only Him
the One and Only
why i still alive
and why i have to go through this journey ...






***i-n-t-h-a-t-m-o-m-e-n-t

3 comments:

  1. Beautiful and bad moment in life just reminds us to Allah.

    Just back to basic.

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  2. setuju dengan encek psychopath.

    salam dear. maaf. lama rasanya tak ke mari :)

    rezeki tu milik Allah kan. Dia maha menentukan dan hanya Dia yang memperkenankan. Barangkali rezeki adik tu kat tempat lain. kita tak tahu kan.

    tapi pelik juga kenapa kakaknya yang frust. :P

    hmm. anak2 sekarang tak macam anak2 dulu kan. saya pun di kelilingi adik beradik lelaki semuanya berteman mengalahkan kakaknya dah. just tegur je mana yang patut dear. InsyaAllah. dorang masih tetap ingat batas2 pergaulan dan tak lebih dari tu.

    ok dear. jangan malas2 pegi terawih. ~eh. diri ni pun sebenarnya. uhuu.

    take care. :D

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  3. Salam :)

    1. encek psychopath

    wow...serius
    takut ...
    hehe :)
    baik ^^

    2. cik sar ^^

    takpe, ok je
    saye rindu awak
    selalu buka blog awak
    suka dengar lagunye :)

    pasal adik tu
    memang frust habis
    sebab saye yang isi semua borang2
    hantar borang bagai
    astaghfirullah
    mungkin itu yang terbaik untuk die kan?

    pasal girlfriend die tu...
    aduh, bley bikin sakit jantung
    barulah paham perasaan mak ayah
    bila ada lelaki nak masuk minang saya
    (hehe ... dolu lah. tapi takde jodoh kami)

    baik, chaiyuk dear ^^

    jom kite carik masjid best tuk iktikaf :)

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